Seriously, we must have a foot of snow on the ground here. What is UP with that?? I thought somewhere I read we were going to have an easy winter- really? We haven't hit 30 degrees in over a week!! I think we got 5" of snow after I went to bed- and the sad part is that I'm (for once) NOT exagerating!
I'm already sick of it. I had to shovel the driveway Saturday night. We had 6" of snow in the 3 hours we were gone to a 4 year old's birthday party. It took me an hour and a half to shovel! I don't have THAT long of a driveway. The snow was blowing, though, so I'd just get one section done and what I finished would drift back over. blech.
I'm calling uncle- It's not even January, and I'm DONE. Ugh- I've so had enough of midwest weather.
Monday, December 8, 2008
Friday, December 5, 2008
Sick of winter ALREADY!
First - a warning. I'm in a pissy mood today, so this is going to be a bit whiney. Stop reading now if you're not in the mood to hear my bitching.
Ok. It is DECEMBER 5, for Chrissakes. The daytime high today? 28 freakin' degrees! Seriously? It was 70 degrees out less than a month ago. I freaking HATE Michigan. I really do- I hate it here. I hate the economy here, this area makes me depressed and unmotivated. I love it here in the summer - you simply can not beat the west coast of Michigan for summer weather- it is GORGEOUS. However, I'd so much rather just visit than live here. Winters are too much for me.
Today it is snowing and blowing- and did I mention that it's freakin' COLD? The roads are an ice rink- I can not get my son to school on time when they don't salt the roads. Oh, but this weekend? It's supposed to be too cold for salt to work. Grrr. Winter.
Oh, and I have a sinus headache from hell and I feel like I haven't slept in a week. We have plans ALLLLLLLL weekend long (fun plans, but still... plans) so there will be no rest for me. Oh, and when we don't have plans, I'll be writing papers. I have a few of those due on Tuesday- and I haven't started them. I've done all the research, but I haven't started WRITING the papers. Great. AND I have a kitchen design to finish- cost estimates need to be done still. The design is mostly complete, but I need to put together a presentation board and do my cost estimates. FUN!
Ok. Done whining. For now anyhow.
Ok. It is DECEMBER 5, for Chrissakes. The daytime high today? 28 freakin' degrees! Seriously? It was 70 degrees out less than a month ago. I freaking HATE Michigan. I really do- I hate it here. I hate the economy here, this area makes me depressed and unmotivated. I love it here in the summer - you simply can not beat the west coast of Michigan for summer weather- it is GORGEOUS. However, I'd so much rather just visit than live here. Winters are too much for me.
Today it is snowing and blowing- and did I mention that it's freakin' COLD? The roads are an ice rink- I can not get my son to school on time when they don't salt the roads. Oh, but this weekend? It's supposed to be too cold for salt to work. Grrr. Winter.
Oh, and I have a sinus headache from hell and I feel like I haven't slept in a week. We have plans ALLLLLLLL weekend long (fun plans, but still... plans) so there will be no rest for me. Oh, and when we don't have plans, I'll be writing papers. I have a few of those due on Tuesday- and I haven't started them. I've done all the research, but I haven't started WRITING the papers. Great. AND I have a kitchen design to finish- cost estimates need to be done still. The design is mostly complete, but I need to put together a presentation board and do my cost estimates. FUN!
Ok. Done whining. For now anyhow.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
101 things in 1001 days
I've decided to jump on the 101 things bandwagon. There's a huge movement on the internet right now for people to do 101 things they've always wanted to do in 1001 days. Almost like a New Years resolution list, but with 3+ years to complete it.
I couldn't quite come up with 101 things- I do most of the things I'd like to do- but I did come up with 64. Here's my list. The ones in blue are the ones I'm currently working on. I'll update from time to time as to how it's going.
1- Lose 10 pounds
2- Lose 20 pounds
3- Get my weight back into the mid 120s
4- Work out 2-3x a week, every week
5- spend more time PLAYING with my children
6-- Be stupid...lighten up
7- Find a new source for grass fed free range beef and buy.
8- Plant a garden, keep up on the weeding, and harvest from it
9- Get current and stay current on our bills
10- Help Andy keep motivated to find a job
11- Finish my degree
12- Clean toy room and donate at least 1/2 of the toys, organize the rest
13- Set the kids up with spaces for their things in their rooms
14- Donate time, money, or resources to an organization I believe in
15- Eliminate weekly junk food meals
16- Only buy REAL food- no fast food, no junk in my grocery cart
17- Keep the dishes out of my sink at all times
18- Keep bathrooms "guest ready" all the time
19- Listen to more music- make the time for it
20- Learn to sew well
21- Spend more time painting and doing art
22- Have sex with my husband 2x every week
23- Complete the Couch to 5K running program
24- USE the yoga classes that I've paid for
25- Do pilates videos 1x week
25- Try 1 new recipe a month
26- Take bike rides as a family 5x a summer
27- Go hiking with my family 8x a summer
28- Take more pictures of my children
29- Find a way to make an adequate living doing the job I went to school for
30- Get Kaya back in private school
31- Eliminate use of plastic and paper grocery bags- USE the reusable ones I bought!
32- Throw out junk mail and unwanted school papers the minute they come in the house
33- Find an affordable source to replace my non-green cleaning products with green ones
34- Set a budget and stick to it
35- Find a good resale shop to buy clothes for myself and the kids
36- Visit a winery
37- Befriend someone over the age of 70- listen to them tell me their stories
38- Drink 8 glasses of water a day
39- Take a ballroom dancing class with my husband
40- Start a savings account for each of my children. Contribute to it.
41- Clean my office up and USE it
42- Go meat free 1x a week
43- Go gluten & dairy free 1x a week
44- Create and use a cleaning schedule
45- Have a girl's night 2x a month
46- Clean up my credit report- write letters and have old things removed
47- Run a 5K
48- Run a 10K
49- Complete triathalon
50- Get kids enrolled in some sort of martial arts or other physical activity
51- Take monthly road trips in state during the summer
52- Go camping with the family 3x a year
53- Get Aiden to school on time every day
54- Find missing CD of Kaya's infant photos
55- Print photos of my children
56- Create photo albums so that I don't need a computer to look at photos of my children
57- Have a family portrait taken 1x a year
58- Have a will drawn up
59- Figure out who should be guardian of our children if something happens to us
60- Draw up a living will. Have it notarized.
61- Spend 1 day every 3 months completely alone doing something I want to do
62- Meet every AM I haven't met so far
63- Visit Colorado at least 1x a year (if we don't move there!)
64- See Lake Louise in Banff
I couldn't quite come up with 101 things- I do most of the things I'd like to do- but I did come up with 64. Here's my list. The ones in blue are the ones I'm currently working on. I'll update from time to time as to how it's going.
1- Lose 10 pounds
2- Lose 20 pounds
3- Get my weight back into the mid 120s
4- Work out 2-3x a week, every week
5- spend more time PLAYING with my children
6-- Be stupid...lighten up
7- Find a new source for grass fed free range beef and buy.
8- Plant a garden, keep up on the weeding, and harvest from it
9- Get current and stay current on our bills
10- Help Andy keep motivated to find a job
11- Finish my degree
12- Clean toy room and donate at least 1/2 of the toys, organize the rest
13- Set the kids up with spaces for their things in their rooms
14- Donate time, money, or resources to an organization I believe in
15- Eliminate weekly junk food meals
16- Only buy REAL food- no fast food, no junk in my grocery cart
17- Keep the dishes out of my sink at all times
18- Keep bathrooms "guest ready" all the time
19- Listen to more music- make the time for it
20- Learn to sew well
21- Spend more time painting and doing art
22- Have sex with my husband 2x every week
23- Complete the Couch to 5K running program
24- USE the yoga classes that I've paid for
25- Do pilates videos 1x week
25- Try 1 new recipe a month
26- Take bike rides as a family 5x a summer
27- Go hiking with my family 8x a summer
28- Take more pictures of my children
29- Find a way to make an adequate living doing the job I went to school for
30- Get Kaya back in private school
31- Eliminate use of plastic and paper grocery bags- USE the reusable ones I bought!
32- Throw out junk mail and unwanted school papers the minute they come in the house
33- Find an affordable source to replace my non-green cleaning products with green ones
34- Set a budget and stick to it
35- Find a good resale shop to buy clothes for myself and the kids
36- Visit a winery
37- Befriend someone over the age of 70- listen to them tell me their stories
38- Drink 8 glasses of water a day
39- Take a ballroom dancing class with my husband
40- Start a savings account for each of my children. Contribute to it.
41- Clean my office up and USE it
42- Go meat free 1x a week
43- Go gluten & dairy free 1x a week
44- Create and use a cleaning schedule
45- Have a girl's night 2x a month
46- Clean up my credit report- write letters and have old things removed
47- Run a 5K
48- Run a 10K
49- Complete triathalon
50- Get kids enrolled in some sort of martial arts or other physical activity
51- Take monthly road trips in state during the summer
52- Go camping with the family 3x a year
53- Get Aiden to school on time every day
54- Find missing CD of Kaya's infant photos
55- Print photos of my children
56- Create photo albums so that I don't need a computer to look at photos of my children
57- Have a family portrait taken 1x a year
58- Have a will drawn up
59- Figure out who should be guardian of our children if something happens to us
60- Draw up a living will. Have it notarized.
61- Spend 1 day every 3 months completely alone doing something I want to do
62- Meet every AM I haven't met so far
63- Visit Colorado at least 1x a year (if we don't move there!)
64- See Lake Louise in Banff
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
working and working and working some more
Well, I'm SUPPOSED to be working right now. I do love working on Wednesdays. I work with a friend who is also finishing her design degree at the same school I go to, so we always get so much homework done. Nobody shops for furniture on Wednesdays, it seems.
So, instead of actually WORK working, I'm working on homework- sort of. I have to write a final paper for my art history class, and the subject is renaissance art, focusing on the effects of science and the Medici family on the art of that period. Good thing renaissance art is my second favorite artistic period - I actually don't MIND writing a paper on this subject. My other option for a final project was an art project based on the art of Aminah Robinson- I'm NOT a fan of hers, so it was a no-brainer for me.
Now I just have to get started. Hmmm. That is the hard part, isn't it? I'm such a procrastinator. Maybe I'll just read for a little while first. Hmmm.
So, instead of actually WORK working, I'm working on homework- sort of. I have to write a final paper for my art history class, and the subject is renaissance art, focusing on the effects of science and the Medici family on the art of that period. Good thing renaissance art is my second favorite artistic period - I actually don't MIND writing a paper on this subject. My other option for a final project was an art project based on the art of Aminah Robinson- I'm NOT a fan of hers, so it was a no-brainer for me.
Now I just have to get started. Hmmm. That is the hard part, isn't it? I'm such a procrastinator. Maybe I'll just read for a little while first. Hmmm.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Another move on the horizon?
We've been living in Michigan for 5 years now. 5 long, miserable years. I'm so done with Michigan. Husband loves it here- he loves the nature, he loves being far from a city. Me, not so much. I miss civilization!
Since husband has been looking for a job, he's applied for jobs in many different states, and even for a position in Canada. So far, there haven't really been any bites. That is, until about a week ago. One of his college professors recommended him to a friend who is in charge of hiring for an agency in Chicago. It sounds pretty promising- it would be contract to hire, which would work out well, especially if he could telecommute a few days a week while contracting. I'm excited about the possibility. He, however, is not thrilled with the idea of moving back to the Chicago area.
I still hope he can find a job in Colorado. That would be the most ideal situation- It's my favorite place in the world, and he loves it there, too. Some of my really close friends are there, and it's not so far from our very best friends, who are in Portland, OR- they visit Colorado several times a year, so we could actually SEE them. I think Daughter and Son would be happy there, and there are great schools out there in areas we could actually AFFORD.
However if that doesn't work out so well, I could totally move back to the Chicago area. We have lots of friends there- we lived there for 8 years, after all. Even Son has friends there- Husband's cousin has a son the same age as Son and they play very well together and would be great friends. We'll have to see what develops. I'm excited for the possibilities of moving in the spring. I'd like to stay put till June when I graduate college and get Son through first grade, but after that I'd love to get out of here.
We'll see!
Since husband has been looking for a job, he's applied for jobs in many different states, and even for a position in Canada. So far, there haven't really been any bites. That is, until about a week ago. One of his college professors recommended him to a friend who is in charge of hiring for an agency in Chicago. It sounds pretty promising- it would be contract to hire, which would work out well, especially if he could telecommute a few days a week while contracting. I'm excited about the possibility. He, however, is not thrilled with the idea of moving back to the Chicago area.
I still hope he can find a job in Colorado. That would be the most ideal situation- It's my favorite place in the world, and he loves it there, too. Some of my really close friends are there, and it's not so far from our very best friends, who are in Portland, OR- they visit Colorado several times a year, so we could actually SEE them. I think Daughter and Son would be happy there, and there are great schools out there in areas we could actually AFFORD.
However if that doesn't work out so well, I could totally move back to the Chicago area. We have lots of friends there- we lived there for 8 years, after all. Even Son has friends there- Husband's cousin has a son the same age as Son and they play very well together and would be great friends. We'll have to see what develops. I'm excited for the possibilities of moving in the spring. I'd like to stay put till June when I graduate college and get Son through first grade, but after that I'd love to get out of here.
We'll see!
Sunday, November 16, 2008
NOW I remember why I drink!
I missed my meds last night. I was drinking with friends, and having a good time, then I watched an episode of 30 Rock and crashed. Nowhere in that time did I remember to take my meds.
Today I am in SUCH a pissy mood. First of all, my kids woke me up at 7. I didn't go to bed till 2. NOT their fault, but still, it annoyed me. Secondly, husband slept till 11 AM while I got up with 2 kids- one of them feeling pukey- and dealt with getting them breakfast and settled in with movies. I then went back to bed for a little bit. Just got in and all snuggled up when he rolled over and said "Oh, it's 11- we should both get up". Um, No. You get up with the kids- I'm taking a nap. I slept till 11:30 and he woke me up again- this time with coffee, though, so he gets a pass. I hadn't eaten anything yet, so I had some breakfast.
Since I didn't go visit the 'rents last weekend, I packed up the monkeys and took them out to see mom and dad. Of course, mom and dad loaded them up with sugar, and it's freezing rain today, so the kids couldn't go play outside. Grr. Now the kids are bouncing off the walls, refusing to go outside, and just generally driving me freaking nuts! Daughter is crying over every_little_THING. Son is just generally being a jerk- won't listen, copying daughter, just being rotten. Oh, and that husband of mine? Yeah- he's off at his mom's house- without EITHER child. Granted he needed to present the design for her new website for her restaurant, so he IS working, but Grr!!
I think it's time for a cocktail.
Today I am in SUCH a pissy mood. First of all, my kids woke me up at 7. I didn't go to bed till 2. NOT their fault, but still, it annoyed me. Secondly, husband slept till 11 AM while I got up with 2 kids- one of them feeling pukey- and dealt with getting them breakfast and settled in with movies. I then went back to bed for a little bit. Just got in and all snuggled up when he rolled over and said "Oh, it's 11- we should both get up". Um, No. You get up with the kids- I'm taking a nap. I slept till 11:30 and he woke me up again- this time with coffee, though, so he gets a pass. I hadn't eaten anything yet, so I had some breakfast.
Since I didn't go visit the 'rents last weekend, I packed up the monkeys and took them out to see mom and dad. Of course, mom and dad loaded them up with sugar, and it's freezing rain today, so the kids couldn't go play outside. Grr. Now the kids are bouncing off the walls, refusing to go outside, and just generally driving me freaking nuts! Daughter is crying over every_little_THING. Son is just generally being a jerk- won't listen, copying daughter, just being rotten. Oh, and that husband of mine? Yeah- he's off at his mom's house- without EITHER child. Granted he needed to present the design for her new website for her restaurant, so he IS working, but Grr!!
I think it's time for a cocktail.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Happy birthday, dear sister
Today would've been my sister's 30th birthday. She's been gone over 3 years but I still miss her so much, especially around her birthday. It's just tough for me. The older my daughter gets, the more I miss my sister- Kaya is so like Tanya.
I just wish I could call her up one more time and tell her happy birthday. Hear her raspy smokers voice on the other end of the phone, drunk on cheap beer and talking way too loudly. I still sometimes have a hard time accepting that I'll never talk to her again.
Happy 30th birthday, Tanya. I miss you.
I just wish I could call her up one more time and tell her happy birthday. Hear her raspy smokers voice on the other end of the phone, drunk on cheap beer and talking way too loudly. I still sometimes have a hard time accepting that I'll never talk to her again.
Happy 30th birthday, Tanya. I miss you.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
New vampire crush
I started the Sookie Stackhouse books yesterday. The first one, the one I requested from the library the third week of October, finally came in. I've practically devoured it! I LOVE Vampires! I have a new crush- Bill the Vampire is just sexy. These books are way more steamy than the Twilight series. Of course, they aren't written for young adults, but they're so much sexier. Bill isn't as romantic as Edward, of course- who could be?- but he's still got the protective, dark yearning love for Sookie that Edward had for Bella.
I really do need a vampire.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
A long week
This has been a loooong week. Tuesday's election day was amazing. I was so happy I CRIED when Obama won. Just amazing.
Wednesday was my birthday, and I had a great one. My family woke me up with breakfast in bed, and then a co-worker bought me a delicious lunch from a new restaurant in town. After work, my mom and dad stopped by and brought me dinner and a birthday cake, and my mother in law sent a bottle of wine home with my husband for me. Yummm!
I'm on a diet thing again- I need to get rid of the weight I've gained since summer before Christmas gets here. And I FINALLY got my hands on a vampire book, thanks to Brook.
Not a whole lot else going on lately. I am looking forward to my nice boring weekend. I stayed in bed most of the day today, and it was so nice. I have NO plans for tomorrow, and don't intend to make any. I needed this!
Wednesday was my birthday, and I had a great one. My family woke me up with breakfast in bed, and then a co-worker bought me a delicious lunch from a new restaurant in town. After work, my mom and dad stopped by and brought me dinner and a birthday cake, and my mother in law sent a bottle of wine home with my husband for me. Yummm!
I'm on a diet thing again- I need to get rid of the weight I've gained since summer before Christmas gets here. And I FINALLY got my hands on a vampire book, thanks to Brook.
Not a whole lot else going on lately. I am looking forward to my nice boring weekend. I stayed in bed most of the day today, and it was so nice. I have NO plans for tomorrow, and don't intend to make any. I needed this!
Friday, October 31, 2008
The next week
I must admit, I really am looking forward to the next week. First came tonight- Halloween. I love Halloween- it's always been one of my favorite holidays, but there's nothing quite like celebrating it with my husband's family. We lug the kids, in costume, to my brother in law's house, where there are always plentiful snacks and a crock pot full of hot apple cider. Oh, and a bottle of Hot Damn to go WITH the cider. If you've never had hot cider with hot damn in it you are truly missing out on one of fall's pleasures.
At that point, the hubby and I draw straws to see who hikes it with the kids and who stays behind to drink with brother in law. This year I won- I got to stay behind. I get along very well with my brother in law- he's awesome. Plus, it was kind of fun watching all the mom's in the neighborhood (VERY tight knit neighborhood) wonder who this chick is in Eric and Kim's house. LOL. I KNOW there's some gossip flying in that 'hood tonight.
Anyhow, now we're home, fully candied up, kids are in bed, and we're turning on a scary movie. The best part is it's only 9:30!!!
Next thing to be excited for- Tomorrow night we're going to a halloween party. A "costumes mandatory" party. I am SOOOO looking forward to it- we haven't gone to a grown ups party in a loooooong time.
After that is election day. To me, that's always a big deal, even if I don't like who I'm "forced" to vote for. This year, however, I am HUGELY excited to vote for Obama. I think he's a force of nature and I can't wait to see what he does as president to turn our ailing country around.
The very next day is my birthday. This year it will probably be pretty anti-climatic since I already got my birthday present from my parents (my mom took me shopping for clothes to wear for a business trip) and since I had a nice vacation with the girls in October, I'm GUESSING that my husband won't be getting me anything either. Still, a birthday is a cause for celebration, and I do have the next day off. LOL
That pretty much covers it all, but it should be a great week. I'm super excited. YAY!
At that point, the hubby and I draw straws to see who hikes it with the kids and who stays behind to drink with brother in law. This year I won- I got to stay behind. I get along very well with my brother in law- he's awesome. Plus, it was kind of fun watching all the mom's in the neighborhood (VERY tight knit neighborhood) wonder who this chick is in Eric and Kim's house. LOL. I KNOW there's some gossip flying in that 'hood tonight.
Anyhow, now we're home, fully candied up, kids are in bed, and we're turning on a scary movie. The best part is it's only 9:30!!!
Next thing to be excited for- Tomorrow night we're going to a halloween party. A "costumes mandatory" party. I am SOOOO looking forward to it- we haven't gone to a grown ups party in a loooooong time.
After that is election day. To me, that's always a big deal, even if I don't like who I'm "forced" to vote for. This year, however, I am HUGELY excited to vote for Obama. I think he's a force of nature and I can't wait to see what he does as president to turn our ailing country around.
The very next day is my birthday. This year it will probably be pretty anti-climatic since I already got my birthday present from my parents (my mom took me shopping for clothes to wear for a business trip) and since I had a nice vacation with the girls in October, I'm GUESSING that my husband won't be getting me anything either. Still, a birthday is a cause for celebration, and I do have the next day off. LOL
That pretty much covers it all, but it should be a great week. I'm super excited. YAY!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Alcohol is my friend
You know what I love? Alcohol. I really do love alcohol. Vodka is a wonderful thing.
I had a long day. It was my day off, but it was still a reallllllly long day- my daughter was home with me all day. We went to the library, which is usually a good thing- we have FUN at the library. However, she was whiny and tired when we left to go there. I just wanted a vampire book- that's all I wanted. Just a vampire book. Is that so much to ask? A vampire book with some romance. However, my daughter wasn't in the mood to wait around while I looked for a vampire book, so we went up to the children's section and found books for her first. Not a problem- we found some princess books, which is a big thing for her, and I thought all would be good. It was sooo not. She still wouldn't hang out while I searched for a vampire book. Well, turns out my stupid freaking library had no vampire books with romance and sex, anyhow. Grr.
Anyhow, I found an ok book- it's a series of supernatural short stories, which is fine, but I really really wish I could've gotten my vampire book. Grr.
I had a long day. It was my day off, but it was still a reallllllly long day- my daughter was home with me all day. We went to the library, which is usually a good thing- we have FUN at the library. However, she was whiny and tired when we left to go there. I just wanted a vampire book- that's all I wanted. Just a vampire book. Is that so much to ask? A vampire book with some romance. However, my daughter wasn't in the mood to wait around while I looked for a vampire book, so we went up to the children's section and found books for her first. Not a problem- we found some princess books, which is a big thing for her, and I thought all would be good. It was sooo not. She still wouldn't hang out while I searched for a vampire book. Well, turns out my stupid freaking library had no vampire books with romance and sex, anyhow. Grr.
Anyhow, I found an ok book- it's a series of supernatural short stories, which is fine, but I really really wish I could've gotten my vampire book. Grr.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
I don't need that!
It's 9:25 PM. I had a BIG dinner- a baked chicken breast with penne pasta and sun dried tomato alfredo sauce. After that, I had an apple. I am NOT HUNGRY! So, someone please tell me why I keep having to fight myself to keep from going to the kitchen to hunt for chocolate? Seriously- I don't need chocolate right now. I'm not even a LITTLE hungry. I swear, my body is trying its hardest to sabotage my efforts at losing that nasty roll of fat that hangs over my jeans.
Maybe the problem is living so close to my mother. After all, she did send home an entire box of chips with me last weekend. And some cream cheese danish. Oh, and no-bake cookies. I think she WANTS me to be fat!
Grrr. Self control- that's what I'm missing. Will power and self control. Maybe I should invest in velcro- I'll sew it to all my comfy pants so that when I'm wearing them (I change into comfys as soon as I get home from work) my ass is firmly velcroed to the couch. Of course, that would defeat my plan to eventually start working out. Hmmmm. One step at a time I guess. LOL
Maybe the problem is living so close to my mother. After all, she did send home an entire box of chips with me last weekend. And some cream cheese danish. Oh, and no-bake cookies. I think she WANTS me to be fat!
Grrr. Self control- that's what I'm missing. Will power and self control. Maybe I should invest in velcro- I'll sew it to all my comfy pants so that when I'm wearing them (I change into comfys as soon as I get home from work) my ass is firmly velcroed to the couch. Of course, that would defeat my plan to eventually start working out. Hmmmm. One step at a time I guess. LOL
Monday, October 27, 2008
Another day, another reason to feel guilty
I have to admit it. I'm getting fat. I've always been the skinny girl, but since I hit 30, I'm getting fat. It started literally ON my 30th birthday. That's when I first noticed that my previously comfortable size 4 jeans were no longer so comfy. By the time 31 rolled around, I had moved up to a size 6. I'm ok with a size 6. Cindy Crawford is a size 6, after all, and look where she's gotten. Now 32 is creeping up on me (Only a week away now - gasp!) and I'm staring size 8 in the face. The worst part? I lost all the extra weight earlier this summer- I was back in my comfy old size 4s- and I've managed to gain it all back, PLUS SOME!
I have to do something about this, but instead I continue to eat. Eat and eat and eat- whatever and whenever I feel like it. Pecan tarts at 10 pm? SURE!! Oh, but you just had a marshmallow creme at 9? BIG DEAL!! That's how I ate in my 20s- and it was FINE! Through 2 pregnancies and everything- I lost the weight no problem. Now, here I am standing on the wrong side of 30 and the weight seems to come out of nowhere. I know what I need to do to get rid of it- I have to actually WATCH what I eat- eat less, and eat better. Cut the candy and probably cut back on the alcohol (nectar of the gods!). Can I do it? Probably. Have I done it? Hells no- I'm too lazy. I'd rather sit back and have another Chunky bar.
Maybe that can be my new nickname. Chunky. Hmmmm.
I have to do something about this, but instead I continue to eat. Eat and eat and eat- whatever and whenever I feel like it. Pecan tarts at 10 pm? SURE!! Oh, but you just had a marshmallow creme at 9? BIG DEAL!! That's how I ate in my 20s- and it was FINE! Through 2 pregnancies and everything- I lost the weight no problem. Now, here I am standing on the wrong side of 30 and the weight seems to come out of nowhere. I know what I need to do to get rid of it- I have to actually WATCH what I eat- eat less, and eat better. Cut the candy and probably cut back on the alcohol (nectar of the gods!). Can I do it? Probably. Have I done it? Hells no- I'm too lazy. I'd rather sit back and have another Chunky bar.
Maybe that can be my new nickname. Chunky. Hmmmm.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Aging kind of sucks
Once upon a time, back in my late teens and early 20s, I felt like a beautiful woman. I rarely walked into a room where heads didn't turn. I was hot. Then it seems that I lost that. It seems to have disappeared sometime around the birth of my second child.
Since reaching my 30s, I've rarely been aware of men being interested in me. Those that are, are not men who's interest I want- blech! Mostly fat, bald men approaching 60, or dirty smelly guys in their early 20s. Certainly nobody crush-worthy.
It's all very disappointing, this growing older thing. I feel like I've lost "it". I don't know where "it" went or how I could get "it" back, but it's certainly not here anymore. And I know I used to have "it". If I could only pinpoint when and where I lost it. Hmmmm.
I think what I need is a crush. Preferably a crush on someone who's mutually crushing on me. I need that little heart flutter, I think. Sigh.
Since reaching my 30s, I've rarely been aware of men being interested in me. Those that are, are not men who's interest I want- blech! Mostly fat, bald men approaching 60, or dirty smelly guys in their early 20s. Certainly nobody crush-worthy.
It's all very disappointing, this growing older thing. I feel like I've lost "it". I don't know where "it" went or how I could get "it" back, but it's certainly not here anymore. And I know I used to have "it". If I could only pinpoint when and where I lost it. Hmmmm.
I think what I need is a crush. Preferably a crush on someone who's mutually crushing on me. I need that little heart flutter, I think. Sigh.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
A little bit about ME!
Since you're reading this blog, I figure you must want to know a little bit about me. Why else would you be here, right?
I'm in my early 30s. I have 2 children, and I've been married for going on 9 years. I currently live in Michigan, which is beautiful in the summer time up really sucks in the winter, but I don't know how much longer I'm planning on sticking around.
My husband and I both grew up here, you see, and this is where our parents are. However, we lived in Illinois for several years, and we found that we did much better as a family when we lived AWAY from the REST of our family. That, and the economy here is much worse than anywhere else in the country, and the job market sucks. So, it's time to move on.
While my husband and I are in complete agreement that it is, in fact, time to move on, and we've even agreed (without much discussion as we always seem to be on the same page) where we want to move on TOO, the guilt I'm anticipating receiving from my mother (Catholic, natch) makes me reluctant. This is just one of the many, many things I'm struggling with right now. Hence, the blog!
So, this is a place for me to talk out all the things I'm struggling with. I'm slightly neurotic, and since I can't vent to my friends right now (most of them are against me moving, and nobody takes my neurosis too seriously), I need a place to talk it out. Again, hence the blog.
If you're reading this, thanks- it means maybe I AM more interesting than I take myself to be. Drop me an email and let me know what you think! Thanks, and look for more about me and my many neurotic ramblings soon.
I'm in my early 30s. I have 2 children, and I've been married for going on 9 years. I currently live in Michigan, which is beautiful in the summer time up really sucks in the winter, but I don't know how much longer I'm planning on sticking around.
My husband and I both grew up here, you see, and this is where our parents are. However, we lived in Illinois for several years, and we found that we did much better as a family when we lived AWAY from the REST of our family. That, and the economy here is much worse than anywhere else in the country, and the job market sucks. So, it's time to move on.
While my husband and I are in complete agreement that it is, in fact, time to move on, and we've even agreed (without much discussion as we always seem to be on the same page) where we want to move on TOO, the guilt I'm anticipating receiving from my mother (Catholic, natch) makes me reluctant. This is just one of the many, many things I'm struggling with right now. Hence, the blog!
So, this is a place for me to talk out all the things I'm struggling with. I'm slightly neurotic, and since I can't vent to my friends right now (most of them are against me moving, and nobody takes my neurosis too seriously), I need a place to talk it out. Again, hence the blog.
If you're reading this, thanks- it means maybe I AM more interesting than I take myself to be. Drop me an email and let me know what you think! Thanks, and look for more about me and my many neurotic ramblings soon.
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